5ive, “When the Lights Go Out”

BABY WHEN THE LIGHTS. GO OUT.
I’LL SHOW YOU WHAT IT’S ALL. ABOUT.

10/2/2004: BABY WHEN THE LIGHTS GO OUT~
The camping trip with the Girl Scout Troupe was great. With only four of us in the troop, it was nice to be able to camp in a tent with no conflict.

The leaders [who were outside making s’mores] had their own cabin. But in ours, we played Barbie: Queen Of The Prom [90’s edition] and listened to Allison’s copy of the Clueless soundtrack. We also wrote crap all over the cabin in Sharpie, including the lyrics from 5IVE’s “When The Lights Go Out.” Then we discussed the true meanings of going first, second and third bases with boys. We came to the conclusion that:

  • Dugout = holding hands
  • First Base = making out
  • Second Base = contact above the waist, underneath clothing
  • Third Base = Contact below the waist, underneath clothing
  • Home = oh, you all know THAT.

After s’mores and a midnight hike, we stayed up until three AM just talking about how far we’ve “been” and how glad we are that the bad half of our troop is gone. Now that it’s so peaceful, now that we can just say what we want without tension…

Being a Senior Girl Scout kicks ass. But I still wish there was another level after this. I think I’m going to miss it.

Tsunami Bomb, “Dawn on a Funeral Day”

I remember going through a phase when I tied a little black ribbon around my neck like Emily Whitehurst did in this video.

10/1/2004: Call me Duchess, it’s Formal Friday.

I love seeing everyone in their formal finest! But so far my dress is most successful at confusing people.

Today a freshman Sk8r Boi tapped my shoulder and asked me, “Hey… Are you a dancer?” I widened my eyes into what became somewhat of a morose stare, and cocked my head to one side. “I’m a visual arts major,” I replied flatly. “Oh! Whoa! You ARE? I am SOOOO sorry!” He sputtered. This continued for about twenty seconds until I gave him another strange look and strolled away with Marisol.

That was the first time in my entire life I have been confused for A DANCER. EVER.

I did my best to look Jersey Cuban formal, but punk, in my poofy black polka-dotted dress, white pumps, fishnets and all. Imani even said I should “pimp my heritage” more in Spanish class.

My facade of elegance seemed to fade around fourth period, when I fell asleep in English class for about thirty minutes. I’m very glad my teacher didn’t wake me up. Once I did wake up, I was back on track and thinking about persuasion through blah-blah-diddly-blah… It doesn’t matter.
Steal His Look: Fred Rechid
Lauren By Ralph Lauren 100% Wool Brown Dress Pants - $125
Googly Eyes - $7.99
Used Gucci Belt with Gold Buckle - $75
Broken Leg - Up to $7500 (without insurance)

Steal His Look: Fred Rechid

  1. Lauren By Ralph Lauren 100% Wool Brown Dress Pants - $125
  2. Googly Eyes - $7.99
  3. Used Gucci Belt with Gold Buckle - $75
  4. Broken Leg - Up to $7500 (without insurance)

Coldplay, “Don’t Panic”

9/29/2004: I need the Garden State soundtrack.

Today was a pleasant day. I missed the afternoon bus along with Andre, so we just took advantage of an after-school painting session. I did almost nothing in the painting class but listen to the music. My teacher put on the soundtrack to Garden State, and it was all very lovely. The Shins, Zero 7, Iron and Wine…

…I must see that movie and buy that CD, pronto. (Well, after I buy the new Bjork CD.)

I felt more angsty today than I have in a while, when Alex walked up to me and called me princess. And I just said “FUCK YOU.”

Afterwards he followed me around and called me Delilah. How will I ever get rid of him?

mall-goths:

i go on abandoned angelfire sites just 4 the art

Good Charlotte, “Predictable”

SAD EXCUSES AND FALSE HOPES HIGH

9/28/2004: “Why do you want to go to the mall?” “Just to be there.”

My Girl Scout Troupe called up and they wanted me to go to the mall with them. “The mall..?” I croaked. “Yeah,” Melissa said, “We’re going shopping.” I could only give them my best response to this. “I really don’t wanna go to the mall,” I said. “Uhh, I don’t care.” Melissa said. “Ok thanks” I said before hanging up.

It’s a real shame those girls have never seen anything outside of a mall.
Instead, I went to Amy’s house and she taught me to ride a bike ALL OVER again! I got stuck twice on the big roads. Starting off and trying not to get run over is quite the feat for me. We made it to the library. I snagged the Ghost World comic book and a Garbage CD and we headed back to the house to eat Hot Pockets. I wondered why I wasn’t flirting with Amy’s brother… I guess some days I just don’t care.
fishpizza:

thatsmoderatelyraven:

Steal His Look: Old Man Jenkins
Kent Wang Polo Light Blue - $265
Lip Gloss - Charlotte Tilbury - $81
Miu Miu Sunglasses - $390
Irish Walking Stick - $67.99

​my favorite part of these are the exorbitant prices ool

fishpizza:

thatsmoderatelyraven:

Steal His Look: Old Man Jenkins

Kent Wang Polo Light Blue - $265

Lip Gloss - Charlotte Tilbury - $81

Miu Miu Sunglasses - $390

Irish Walking Stick - $67.99

​my favorite part of these are the exorbitant prices ool

Bloc Party, “Banquet”

A heart of stone, a smoking gun
I can give you life, I can take it away