Siouxsie and The Banshees, “Happy House”

We’re happy here in the happy house
To forget ourselves and pretend all’s well

9/19/2004: It seems as if everything has been pushed into reverse and there is no way to pull it back.

(tw: verbal abuse)

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9/18/2004: Bruise? Or hickey?

So I escaped with a little boo-boo on my neck from last night’s moshpit. Just a teensy bruise. It has grown darker, and looks almost like a hickey.

Thank god my hair was long enough to cover it while hanging out with my dad today.

We hit up St. Augustine, and Dad let me be the tour guide for a day. He bought me some things, including a Rosie the Riveter lunchbox and Jackie O shades. I felt bad that he spent so much money on me and my sister, but I was really happy to see him. And I was absolutely amazed by how chill he was the whole time; I guess he really is getting older. This is very nice, the fact that he’s mellowing out. I wonder if he ever notices himself sometimes.

He’s gone, now. A brief visit may have been the best thing anyway, before he could lecture me about boys or whatever. We’ll have more to talk about the next time, which may not be for another while.

It’s days like these I want to sit out in the sun and contemplate about nothing. I can just wait for it to soak in so I can feel the warmth in me for days.

fuckyeah1990s:

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In case you’re not trying to get anything done tonight, you can just watch Wish Upon A Star in its entirety

mall-goths said: KEEP DOIN YA THING I LIKE IT RLY BRINGS ME BACK TO 2002 WHEN I WAS 5

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Bowling For Soup, “1985”

Her two kids in high school they tell her that she’s uncool

'Cause she's still preoccupied with 19-19-1985

this is my fave blog pls never stop

I wiiiiiish, the mallgoth chapter of my diary will be up in 2015 when I ease into my indie kid phase! :((

However. THERE WILL BE CARTOON DOLLS

9/17/2004: I Love The 80s [Dance]
I had a blast at the dance tonight. However, my mom fucked it all up when she came into the gym at 9:20 and demanded we haul ass outta there. (Sorry if I didn’t say goodbye to anyone!)

I was actually dancing. A LOT, in fact. I got away with doing only two different types of dance moves all night: the airplane and the Molly Ringwald-air-punch dance.The DJ was a senior, and she was the BEST. She played The Cure, The Smiths and The Ramones. And once Dead Kennedys began playing, we started an all-girl moshpit! This was our answer to the boys who refused to let us join theirs during the Misfits. However, these male freshman asshats eventually decided to crash it, along with my Faux-Nazi ex-boyfriend Adam. So I thrashed and punched as much as I could, until the Faux-Nazi stopped, completely appalled.

I must have moshed into him, because Adam actually stopped and pushed me. “Whaaaat?” I yelled, before he pushed me again and yelled at me. “IT’S A FUCKING PIT!” I yelled back. Later that night, I went back to chastise him some more. “I don’t care who you are,” I said, “Don’t you dare fucking touch me again, sweetheart. You push a girl— and she’s gonna push back.” I said, flicking him off with my feminist mood ring. And right in front of his slinky blond girlfriend.

As of now my mom and I refuse to speak to each other, but this is absolutely fine as my Dad is taking me and my sister for the weekend. In fact he was there when I got home! I sat next to him in my Madonna punk outfit and we started talking about politics, as if 6 months haven’t gone by since we last saw each other.

Pretty Girls Make Graves - Sad Girls Por Vida
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SAD GIRLS FOR LIFE

Pretty Girls Make Graves, “All Medicated Geniuses”

This town has good hearts
Bad blood, emotional scars
Never gettin’ to say what you really wanna say
We all lie so well
We all lie so well

9/16/2004: “Sometimes… I have to tap someone on the shoulder just to know they’re there.”

As I’ve become older, everyone seems to be intoxicated by something, under the influence of some[one]thing, and they find it so liberating. But when you’ve lost control over yourself, where exactly is the liberation?

I don’t need artificial delusion. I’m delusional enough. And sometimes, it’s almost as if I have to tap someone on the shoulder just to know they’re there…

*points above* Evidence I am going positively insane. 

LET’S WATCH— ♫ A DISNEY CHANNEL MOVIE ♫

LET’S WATCH— A DISNEY CHANNEL MOVIE

9/15/2004: That’s right. A school dance.

I saved a bug on the way home. It had been stuck lying on its back, and I tipped it over and we both went on our ways. Saving bugs is only one out of many signs I show of wanting to be a mother someday. As for now, though… Let’s just say I’d rather stick to caring for animals for a long while.

I actually can’t wait for the ’80s dance on Friday. That’s right. A school dance. It’ll be my first one in a while, but because I love the ’80s too much to pass it up.

Then after that, my dad will pick me up and take me to St. Augustine!

nomoremrnicespice:

Can anyone objectively say whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing that a Disney Channel Original Movie would not have a 15-year-old character in a dominatrix costume with a whip crawling across her cafeteria table and basically doing a strip tease if this were made today? Like, please take the whip she’s holding in an earlier scene into account.

nomoremrnicespice:

Can anyone objectively say whether it’s a good thing or a bad thing that a Disney Channel Original Movie would not have a 15-year-old character in a dominatrix costume with a whip crawling across her cafeteria table and basically doing a strip tease if this were made today? Like, please take the whip she’s holding in an earlier scene into account.